I need a place to jolt down what I’m feeling. I can’t go on by myself anymore.
after anna I told myself that I’m never ever getting into such bullshit again. I need to protect myself. But time and time again I never fail to disappoint myself. I’m a wreck.
how is it that you’re able to act like what’s happening between us doesn’t affect you at all? Because I’m drowning in all these emotions. I can’t accept that you’re fine by this. I’m trying my best, but my best isn’t enough. Am I supposed to just give up on us?
I hardly ever fall for anyone but when I do I fall deeply. All I need is your slightest bit of affection in return to keep me going. I’m not going to put myself in vulnerable situations anymore.
I tried convincing myself that what we have isn’t real, to make things easier. look where that got me.