Don’t say a word

I need a place to jolt down what I’m feeling. I can’t go on by myself anymore.

after anna I told myself that I’m never ever getting into such bullshit again. I need to protect myself. But time and time again I never fail to disappoint myself. I’m a wreck.

how is it that you’re able to act like what’s happening between us doesn’t affect you at all? Because I’m drowning in all these emotions. I can’t accept that you’re fine by this. I’m trying my best, but my best isn’t enough. Am I supposed to just give up on us?

I hardly ever fall for anyone but when I do I fall deeply. All I need is your slightest bit of affection in return to keep me going. I’m not going to put myself in vulnerable situations anymore.

I tried convincing myself that what we have isn’t real, to make things easier. look where that got me.

"Don’t do something permanently stupid just because you’re temporarily upset."

(by Matt Lief Anderson)

"lets be friends"

and i swore to myself previously that I’ll never feel this way again, but here I am, 3 a.m and heart wrenched

I once told myself I never want to feel so broken anymore and yet here I am now, 3 a.m and allowing my feelings to take over me


i accidentally showed some weakness earlier today it was disgusting i would not recommend it 









This broke my fucking heart

This is why you don’t lie about having mental disorders. It is not a joke.

I’m crying

This broke my heart

this is real ocd, not the people in school getting annoyed when their desk is messy.

Sigh. I feel for her. She was a string girlfriend

I’m sobbing.

this broke my heart